moment of weakness

Last night I was thinking about a ton of stuff and, to be completely honest, I was bawling. I had thought that everything in my life was going pretty good. I was finally full-fledged following (whoa lots of f's) the Lord and doing his will. But yesterday I had one thing go wrong, and the rest of my day just went downhill. After I calmed down and got a hold of myself, I thought about what had just happened. Everything was and is going great in my life, but in my moment of weakness, I was attacked. So to jump right in to the point of this blog...

The devil uses our moments of weakness to his advantage. I always find that when I'm frustrated about one small thing or I'm just struggling and having a bad day, he attacks me with so much more. Every person has those certain things that they always struggle with. For me, feeling inadequate has been huge. Along with probably 90% of other girls, I sometimes feel like I'm not pretty enough, or skinny enough, or good enough blah blah blah. You get the picture. Anyways, the devil uses my moments of frustration to really attack me with these feelings of worthlessness. On a normal day, I don't really feel anything negative about myself. I'm happy with who I am and who God has created me to be, but oh man... when I'm in that negative mood.. the devil realllly knows how to get to me. That's what made me just lose it last night. Everything going on in my life was magnified by about 4982 and it almost felt like the world was endinng and I had no way to solve my "problems."

The point I'm trying to make is that this is crap. It's so stupid that the devil can take advantage of us like this. It's frustrating that he is SOO good at what he does. And of course we can't always expect him, but as Christians we have our wonderful Savior on our side. We can prepare ourselves and build our faiths up so that when we are faced with difficulties, we are ready to stand against the devil with the Lord with us and succeed. The question isn't about if we're going to face trials in our lives, that's pretty much a given, but it's about when we will face trials. And the difference in those who can conquer and grow in their faiths through persecution and those who give up lies in how much we prepare ourselves and how ready we are to face what the devil has to throw at us. We need to always be in prayer, always be seeking to know God more, always be trying to better ourselves. It's so important. It's not just some random opportunity that God has given us just for fun, he has given us the chance to live a christ-like life that will lead to only good things. Trust in that.